Nothing Special

I am glad September 2011 is over. My whole life has changed so dramatically that I can not even begin to catch up with how I'm actually feeling on a minute to minute basis. The best comparison I can make is that it's like being on a Tilt-A-Whirl with some asshole who thinks it's cool to spin the pod around super fast while the whole ride is already spinning. By that, I mean there's so much spinning going on, there doesn't seem to be a way to catch up...and there are some moments when everything is just so damn still. I haven't written anything in so long. Most of the things I wrote last in this blog and my songwriting blog were either written with or inspired by someone I trusted very much. Trusting people=BAD FREAKING IDEA. Ok, so that's not fair. I have friends. There are people who care about me. There are people I can trust. But MOTHER OF PEARL, did I get the last 6 years of my life WRONG or WHAT?!! Sometimes I think I want to start writing things again... Then this shit manifests. So, I'm trying to move on with my life. The most logical thing for me to do is meet new people. My original plan was to isolate myself to the point that when I die alone in my apartment, no one will ever even know. However, that is selfish and really annoying to the people who actually DO care about me, so meeting new people is what I'm doing. It's not bad so far. We'll see... Maybe I'll start writing again. Who knows?